Sorry Not Sorry, Santa — No Cookies for You

I am a sugar addict and plan to focus on merry notes that replace baking this Christmas — our health, my teal velvet dress and a sweet, fragrant orange.

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My Williams Sonoma cookie jar will not hold cookies this year, but it’s still a sign of holiday cheer.

I am hooked on sugar and trying to break the bond— there, I said it — so Santa, you will not find these accoutrements in our house this Christmas Eve.

  1. Christmas tree cookies with melted-chocolate swags. I made my first batch of buttery sugar-cookie dough in the International Chefs’ Club at Dumont High School (New Jersey) in the 1970s. As a younger mother, I left you a plateful and a note, first with our daughter Annie, and then with Skippy. If our girls were still believers now and the stars were in their courses, you would be fortunate to find a beautifully trimmed cookie from The Little Daisy Bake Shop. A sugar addict like me cannot handle the big batch anymore.

It’s been a journey to arrive at a place where I’m at peace leaving baking behind. I never thought I could or would. An addict is not okay with one serving. You need another slice and another sliver and another wedge until the pecan pie pan (lined with Emily Luchetti’s sweet, butter pastry dough) is empty. You cannot enjoy your substances in moderation. You seek out fixes morning, noon and night. And, in many cases, especially mine, your mood changes after sugaring up. I can turn erratic, mean and crazy. My road has been rocky.

On Christmas Day, I hope to stay calm and present, eat clean and count myself lucky for good health; my new velvet dress, made in the USA and shipped from Kingston, New York; and a plump, fragrant orange. Dad always said he and his two brothers were lucky to get oranges on boyhood Christmas mornings in the Bronx in the 1930s.

Merry sugar-free Christmas, Santa.

Alice Garbarini Hurley lives in Montclair, New Jersey with her family. Her work has appeared in The New York Times, Coastal Living and Brain & Life. She loves magazines and worked on staff in that world for 16+ years. Below, photo of a Karina Dresses model wearing the new Christmas velvet dress Alice bought, and under that, a photo of Alice in a Karina dress that she happened upon years ago in a local fashion boutique (Thread) that has since closed. Catch a glimpse of Skippy, to whom Alice is legal guardian, in the bottom corner of the small photo.

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Image from Karina Dresses.
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That’s me in an older Karina dress — and Skippy sitting nearby.

Magazine maven, craft coffee lover, legal guardian. Passionate about fashion and lipstick — though it may not look that way when I dash to the supermarket.

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