Benya, this story is very helpful. Thank you for sharing it. I've never had a problem with alcohol but I am a compulsive overeater and sugar addict. I attend at 12-step recovery program for this addiction. I will play the tape forward too. I think the key, the golden, elusive key, is pausing long enough and thinking clearly long enough to play the tape forward instead of repeat it. Sincerely, Alice


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