Addiction Recovery Story #24, Gladiola: Farewell to Shame

I’m lightening my footprint here on Earth, not just by skirting sugar but also by letting go of past mistakes that weigh down my heart and soul. This is #24 in my flower-titled story series about sugar/overeating addiction started January 31, 2121.

Dan bought a pack of Gladiolus bulbs last week at Home Depot. I can’t wait for them to bloom. But first we have to clear a patch in the soil, plant them, have faith and be patient. Link here.
  1. Flower selfishness. I had an office mate who expressed her feelings loudly. I once bought a freesia bouquet at Penn Station, for my desk. She said the smell bothered her —she was getting a headache. I thought she was just complaining, opened our one window (by my desk) and refused to get rid of them at first. That was not considerate. And karma comes back to bite you, or teach you. I, too, now find the smell of freesia way too heady and strong.
  2. Time slog. As I progressed in my career, I arrived late to work more and more— after stopping at fancy places for fancy coffees to tote in. They were glamour in a cup, sweetness to soften the hard, grown-up work world. “It’s not fair to everyone else who gets here on time,” a boss at another business said. Although I always stayed later to compensate, she was right. My coworkers started earlier and I should have honored that office culture.
  3. Kate Spade sample sale. I freelanced a few weeks one summer at a well-known magazine, writing for the Christmas issue. I earned a very good day rate. But when I heard about the sample sale downtown, I couldn’t resist, or figure out any other way to swing a trip there than to go in the morning, take the uptown subway and get to work late. The shopping lines were long. I bought a discounted handbag — but I should have gotten to work on time instead. It didn’t feel good. Later that morning, the managing editor called my desk phone. “You’re still working on that story?” she said. I withered inside. I had put my fashion passion first — bordering on addiction — and my reputation as a writer at stake.

Magazine maven, craft coffee lover, legal guardian. Passionate about fashion and lipstick — though it may not look that way when I dash to the supermarket.

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